Triggering: This is me

[Adelaide]

This is a poem I wrote a few months ago. It may be triggering for SH and suicide. Please do not read it if it will trigger you.

This is me

Red tattoos of hidden pain
are carved onto her arm

Because of all the hurt she feels
she does her body harm

The fear and pain and anger
give way to emptyness

Her thoughts trip and tumble
in a complicated mess

One reason that she hurts herself
is to make sure she can feel

She's terrified that her scars
will never trully heal

She wonders if she'll ever be
happy and whole again

She takes her sadness, anger, and fear
and tears her skin open

sometimes her thoughts drown out the world
in a sea of hopeless dreams

Which tangle with reality
in a knot of weeds

The wind sways her back and forth
engulfing her in waves

And she watches from the backseat
as her world goes up in flames

Nothing seems to matter
No one seems to care

The euphoria of death
catches her in its snare

The thoughts start to consume her
She can't feel anymore

The darkness is all around her
seeping into every pore

She doesn't know where to turn
her world is sinking in

She knows this is a temptation
but wonders if it's a sin

She's finally giving in
she's preparing herself to die

The pain has blinded her from the truth
she's giving into the lie

She's at the edge of the cliff
she's ready to jump and die

When out of nowhere she sees emerge
a simple butterfly

The sign is all too clear
the message is of hope

She steps back from the cliff
from her neck she takes the rope

She looks at the creature, delicate, sweet,
and decides she can hold on a little longer;

Deal with the pain while she grows stronger;

Remember that this is preperation;

Never give in to desperation;

Hold on to all that is right and true.

One more day

She's certain now

She can go one more

She lifts her face off the floor

She'll get up

She'll move foreward

She'll go on.

[craz33me]

Wow!
I absolutely loved it!
Fantastic poem.

[Adelaide]

Thank you. Actually, as of now, that isn't me. I'm growing stronger every day.

[Colored Shadows]

This is incredibly well-written! I really enjoyed it! Please keep writing!