Triggering: Pain- That Girl

[TheGirlWithScars]

That Girl - By Me.
[ read after poem also, i have a question }
that girl that adored pink,
her story is losing ink.
for she is losing touch,
as she changed too much.
from the rosy pinks,
to a black that makes most sink.
from smiles in the park,
to alone in the dark.
she used to laugh with friends,
now she's nearing her wits ends.
she misses her old self,
but that story is on the shelf.
she causes a pain, unimagined.
like it is her brand new fashion.
she cries herself to sleep,
as all she can do is weep.
the reason she is so sad,
is because her story makes her mad.
her mind, her story, it makes her feel crazy
maybe thats why her minds so hazy.
she hides herself from the world
because she is no ordainary girl
she doesn't even try to smile
because the looks she gets are so vile.
her pale face, her crystal tears
it's been that way for almost years.
the music she listens to, nobody understands.
she listens because it saves her from her own hands.
she wishes she could scream,
and escape the torturous dreams
but she can't, it will ruin her disguise.
the disguise she uses for all other eyes.
their views affect her, drive her insane.
like she's stuck in neverending rain.
it's like that for everything.
a horrid thing
a black cloud of taunting,
like it's planned a taunting
she hates it all and wants it to end
as if pain is her only friend.

how do i know all about her?
how do i understand what she sees?
the way i know, is because...


that girl is me.
my biggest reason that i cry,
is because i can never find the reason...


why?
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If you have any questions about anything I said up there, feel free to ask me. Um, I have a question.
I have this teacher, she's my favourite teacher and everything. She even knows my biggest secret, and currently we are doing poetry in our class. I'm considering handing this poem in to her, but I'm not sure. It's very personal, and I'm just not entirely sure. The part, " how do i know all about her?
how do i understand what she sees?
the way i know, is because...


that girl is me.
my biggest reason that i cry,
is because i can never find the reason...


why? "
I don't show my friends or anything, because I let one of my friends read the poem [without that part} and they asked me if it was about me. I lied, and said no, then they told me "good" because they didn't want me to be feeling that way.
thanks.♥

[Colored Shadows]

Hey Katie,

This is a very nice poem. I think it's extremely courageous of you to consider showing it to your teacher. I know from experience that writing like this can be very personal and private.

If you want my opinion, I think you should. It sounds as though you're really struggling right now, and this could be your way of reaching out for help. Oftentimes, writing conveys thoughts or emotions that we have no other way of expressing. It gives the reader a greater understanding of our own lives and how we are feeling by using vivid descriptions and imagery. They are, essentially, living it with us.

You don't deserve to feel this way. And reaching out to someone you trust is the first step to getting better.

I hope this helps! If you have any other questions, feel free to write back!

[TheGirlWithScars]

Hey Kylie. Yeah, that was a little bit of a description of me on that comment. I generally tend to throw my emotions out in my writing, hence this poem, and many others, and songs, and stories...
Thanks for your opinion. I appreciate it.

[purplekc95]

This is good. deep you repeated the the same words tho. go to dictionary . com and click on thesaaurus; it'll help you put more variety in your poem and help it flow more easily.

[Funandnice]

Beautiful poem. I know it would be hard, but I would try to hand this in to your teacher.