Triggering (Suicide): Just a few words I wrote.. I dont do it alot nothing special..

[dantheman1992]

Every day is a nightmare
A nightmare that is now my reality
Self harm has become my speciality
Playing on my arm like a violin
Feeling the knife just digging in

Watching the blood drip down my arm
The tears that drip down my face
Now I’ve started I don’t want to stop
Wishing that I could get my life back on top
But every time I feel like I am on top
My mood just tends to drop

Some people think I am stupid
Some people think I am selfish
But they don’t understand that my mind is in a bad place
All these thoughts I just want to erase
Pictures in my mind of my mate hanging
Wondering if in his mind he was panicking
Did he want to stop or was he happy he was closer
Now all to remember him by is a picture on a poster

I just feel like I’m going down under
Thinking of all the reasons to live
Thinking of all the help that I can give
Thinking of all the people who would be upset if I were gone
Or would they be happy that the stress is gone
I just wanna be able to keep strong

I just want to break free from this mood
Get these thoughts out my head
Cos at the end of the day I really don’t want to end up dead
No mum should have to bury there son
Let alone have to think about it

I’ve got plenty of reasons to live
But its whether I can survive all this.
Failing to realise why I feel like this
Just wish I could fix it in a finger click


I miss you so much
I never wanted to lose your touch
I don’t know how to deal with my thoughts
But I know its wrong to self harm
I know its wrong to think the way I think
Its selfish in every single way
Put my family through hell and back
No matter what I do I cant make them happy

Is it right that I feel the need to die
Knowing that Ill be far from an angel in the sky
Always having to question my thoughts
Its reality I don’t think I will ever be better
But can I live and pretend it doesn’t matter?

My mood can change within a minute
My arm can look raw within 2
I could be dead within 3
What scares me the most is would I even know?
Would that be the end or do I go somewhere else and have a repeat show?

[Colored Shadows]

This is a really nice piece, Danny. I could really feel the emotion here. Any way you choose to express yourself is special, and if writing serves as a creative outlet for you, then do it!! This is very good.

Keep it up!!

[dantheman1992]

Thank you, I've got quite a few written but I dont like to post them normally just someone told me I should, so I did

[Dez]

This is really great. Keep writing, poetry is a wonderful way to express yourself.

[BruceLeeDemarcus]

Wow this is great! Amazing job! Keep it up!

[dantheman1992]

Thanks Rachel