really scared...

[kaytastrophie_xo]

Please don't judge me when I tell you what is going on... I'd really appreciate it :/ I've slept with this guy a few times over the past year or so. The last two times we did not use a condom. Why, I have no idea. Because we are stupid? Experimental maybe? I don't really know, but we did it. I regret it. He is also getting nervous as well because we have had time to think about what we've actually done. My period is not very late yet, but I am getting worried. This is the first time I've been on TH since October... but I've felt like I really needed to come back. The issue with this is not only the possibility of pregnancy, but the fact that the father is someone who I am forbidden to even speak to is a big issue here... My family hates him and his family, and his family hates me and my family as well. The reason for this is because the guy I've been sleeping with, his brother raped me two years ago... He continued to threaten and torment me throughout my freshman and sophomore year. The hate my parents have for that kid and his family is beyond anything I can even describe, and if I am pregnant I am seriously considering finding ways to not tell my parents... That is how serious this is. The thought of me having a child with the brother of the guy who has changed my life so dramatically and caused me so much pain... It's unbearable to think about. My child would have his blood in him... The blood of a rapist, my rapist. Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm getting ahead of myself, but nevertheless I am really scared... I really don't know what to do right now... I can't drive so that limits a lot right now... I'm sorry that was so long, I just haven't been able to let any of this out to anyone.

[kimvia]

I'm so sorry that you're going through this...

First of all, get a pregnancy test, you may not have anything to worry about after all.

Second, you have a few different options if you are pregnant. Go talk to planned parenthood if you like.

Also, even though your family hates his family, they love you... keep that in mind.

Good luck with the test, I'm sure things will work out in the end.

[LucyLouWho]

I'm not at all judging you, but I can't help but wonder, if you hate the thought of having a child with your rapist's brother, why are you having sex with him or even involved, for that matter? You don't have to answer that... Just a thought that I had. Again, not at all trying to judge.

If you've already missed your period, you could take a test now. If not, wait until you miss your period (if you do) and then test. By that time, it should be pretty accurate. I hope everything works out for you.

[Nicolette]

I agree with the above noters, if it comes back negative I would give some serious consideration to the relationship that you're in... if its beyond anyone knowing then maybe its best if you two are not together. If its positive I suggest talking to a councillor and weighing out your options.

[TheLittleNinja]

Again I agree with the above posts. But try to stay calm - worrying and stressing about your period and other things is likely to delay it too. Take a test and decide where you go and what you do from there :]

Take Care,
Claire - Feel free to PM.

[kaytastrophie_xo]

Thank you to everyone who replied, I really appreciate your advice.
I'm going to try and stay calm and take a test soon... Hopefully this mistake won't lead to a positive test but if it does I will make sure to be responsible about what I do from there...

And just to answer your question Chelsey, I was with him before the rape... but after it happened I stayed away from him for obvious reasons. I guess I fell back onto him after things started getting harder to cope with. I understand why its weird that I'm involved with him but I just try to see him and his brother as seperate people...

Thanks again everyone.

[Singing to the starlight]

This relationship is understandable. But please, use condoms from now on.

You maybe be worrying about nothing. Get a pregnancy test asap. Then we'll work from there. Stop jumping the gun, you'll only stress yourself out.

Good luck.

[LoveFever]

Just remember, it was his brother, not him, that raped you. And maybe try to explain that to your parents?
There are a lot of options if you are pregnant, us keep an open mind.
I hope everything turns out well