I know what I am. I just can't tell the person I love...

[--.redpanda.--]

Alright.

I know what I am. I'm bisexual. I've come to terms with the fact that I am. I've been living with it since I was 13 years old. I had a best friend that I had fallen for that was a girl. Also, I had fallen for a boy within my class roster. I knew that then I was a bisexual female that was running around in a religious school. -_- I was in a Christian school where they were talking about this being bad. I had fallen in love with two people at that point. Then, a movie came out in which one of the roles was a beautiful dancer. She had caught my attention and I was drooling so bad that my parents asked about it. Confused about what was wrong with me, I told them that the music had me hook. It was this dazzling female that was dancing in front of my eyes really. I confessed to myself that it was the music and that nothing was wrong with me. As I grew older, I grew to have more attractions to females then males. I went to a boarding school for all girls and found that I had fallen in love with three females. The one being the female at age 13 that I had fallen for, then two more that I went to boarding school with. One of them was my friend, but we recently parted ways when I went off to college, and now one of them is my best friend that I can only talk to on facebook and via text.

I've been in love with two of them for a long time. One is a celebrity and the other one is a normal girl. I have fallen into a deep spell with both of these girls. One of them is always bringing up her love life to me and I feel every day my heart is tearing into two at the time. I feel like I am lost in this world. I know that both of them are straight.

[colie18]

Hey Girl!
Like me I know how it feels to deny all the possibilities of being remotely bisexual. Just about 2 weeks ago I finally admitted to myself and a few other people that I am in fact either bisexual or bi-curious. i know that it is especially difficult because of love lives that we can't tell if someone is gay, or bi, or straight it is difficult. Just remember one day you will find that someone who makes you happy weather it is a guy or a girl... Love knows no boundaries.

My advice for you is to listen to your heart, because if you want to tell them that you like/love them then do, but always think of the good things and the bad things that could come out of this. Just listen to your heart, it will guide you in the right direction! I promise

If you ever want to PM me... feel free I promise I don't bite, I would love to talk to someone who is in the same predicament as me. It would be lovely.

XOXO
Colie

[Troubled_Heart]

Hey, I'm bi in a Christian school. Myself, I have accepted it, I've always known deep down cuz I kept crushing on my friends and then on some guy. Telling someone you love them is the hardest thing, but if they accept you for who you are it makes it a lot easier. I know that I am flattered if someone if in love with me. I think although it would be so good if they knew it could wreck your friendship if you're not careful and maybe it is best to keep it to yourself if that is a possibility.

[--.redpanda.--]

Yeah. It just just hard. I mean. I've just really told my parents. I've been in love with this girl for like ages. Telling her...would just be weird. I mean I've been her best friend. I feel like that would just ruin everything.

[her_beautiful_mistake]

You know that she's straight. She obviously only thinks of you as a friend as she discusses her love life with her. I think it would be a great idea to tell her that you're bi but I cannot see what you would gain by telling her you're "in love" with her apart from potentially losing her friendship. It would be something very hard to come back from.

[--.redpanda.--]

I've already told her that I was bi and she was fine with it. I mean it is just hard not to tell her my feelings for her because everytime she gets hurt or falls in love, I feel my heart breaking into two.

[her_beautiful_mistake]

It's great she was fine with it. I just believe you'd lose her or at least change your friendship with her if you were to tell her you're "in love" with her. If it was me, I wouldn't.

[--.redpanda.--]

Yeah. I know what you mean. I've wanted to tell her, but I just can't. I mean telling her I was bi, well...mainly gay, was hard for me. I couldn't really bring myself to tell her that I am in love with her. I've not told the others that I had been in love with them and I've known them for 7 almost 8 years.