Non-PG13: Am I gay, or just confused?

[Dyvan13]

Alright I'm not sad or anything and I'm fine and not going to hurt myself/anyone right now but let me keep this short and sweet.

I have never had a girlfriend or have been on a date. Got my first taste of heartbreak/rejection in middle school and hit me so hard that for my 8th grade and Freshman year I was sexist and really bitter toward women. I easied up a bit sophomore year. I had next to no contact with girls those years either.

Junior year (right now) I have gotten over most of the bitterness and put myself out there again. Two massive heartbreaks back in octuber-february and I've finally gotten over them in early March.

Now, here's where it gets funny. Whenever I talk to girls casually I don't really "feel" anything, but when I talk amongst a group of guys I get that warm, funny feeling and get a bit cheerful. I remember thinking about a guy in a sexual manner and got turned on... I haven't really explored those feelings that much (not because I'm scared or anything, just cuz I haven't really felt like it)

I masturbate to girls (I could name a few websites lawl) all the time and I guess it's gotten a bit dull (I still climax, just it doesn't feel "passionate", yes I do masturbate with passion)

I think it's because I've been so distraught and depressed over girls that the "warm fuzzy feelings" I used to get from them are gone because I guess my subconscious is at disposition to allow myself to "get attatched" to girls becuase I have been heartbroken so many times. And sexual stimulation is necesary in life and so I guess it is spilling out into the other gender because I do get attatched to guys (as freinds) and aren't always paranoid that they are going to hurt me emotionally. IDK can anyone relate?

[Sythan]

Same with me buddy, exactley the same with me. I know im gay, I am not the sterotypical gay either. If you met me youd think im completely straight.

You may be just confused, or you may be gay. No one knows but you.

[Nicole!]

I ment to say this earlier, but I moved this topic here because this is more about your sexuality than relationships and dating.

Do you think you are attracted to guys as you are girls? Could you see yourself with a guy?
You don't have to even put a label on it. That way you can like who you want without the confusion, thats what some of my friends do.
If girls still turn you on, then you could possibly be bi. Could they be dull because you are watching the same videos over again?

It can be tough to get over heartbreak so that could be the reasons that you are feeling an absence of feelings. Just remember that relationships can work out and just because some have failed doesn't mean they all will.

Best of luck

[Dyvan13]

Personality wise, I am as attracted to guys as I am girls. Looks wise, girls. I could see myself with a guy. IDK but whatever it's not bugging me so I'm not going to worry about it.