I don't know what to do

[iDONTNO]

Im fifteen. And lesbian. I've been this way since 3rd grade. Once I told my family about it, and I got the most horrible week of my life. They kept beating me until I was forced to say that I'm straight again, when I really wasn't. I've never admitting to being lesbian.
As you may have guessed,
I live in a extremely christian family. And everyone in my family always says that if they found out i was lesbian they would beat me everyday till I'm straight. And that being gay (or lesbian/bi/transgender) is the worst sin in the bible.
And I've been depressed because of this for four years.

I've recently met the most amazing, lovable, caring, perfect girl in the world. She makes me smile, laugh, and fell alive again.
Im jealous of her because shes been "out" for two years now, and her family has given her nothing but love, encouragement.
My girlfriend is really hurt/angry because of the my family is. I know she only wants the best for me.

I'm so scared of my family!
Why is my family like this?
What do I do about it?
Should I tell my family I'm lesbian? If I do and my girlfriend and I split, then what?
I don't no what to do.
Help me please

[Tigerlily.]

Hey there, first of all, if your family is beating you, it is abuse, and it can be hard to come to terms with, but you need to tell a trusted adult, such as a teacher or counselor. There is no excuse for them to be treating you like this, if they were as Christian as they seem, they would take it as a sin to be abusing their child. I'm sorry to say, but it is physical abuse and you need to get away from them. Just know, that being lesbian or gay or any sexuality is not a sin. It's not a choice and we are made how we are, why would God create you to be a sin? He wouldn't. So you do need to get away from your family by telling a trusted adult who can alert the people that need to know and get you away from this abuse. Coming out can be hard, but know that not everyone will react as your parents did. I know you can stay strong through this and do what you need to.

[Eldora]

You've tried to tell them once, and they wouldn't listen, they just beat you for it. I don't think you should try to tell them again, because that would land you in the same situation, and they would possibly keep you from seeing your girlfriend.

My advice to you is to treat her as you would a normal friend when you're together around your family. Then, when they get used to her, and if you guys last until you're old enough to leave home, then you can tell them, so you can at least leave for a while and keep from being beaten. On the other hand, if they find out about you and your girlfriend and try to hurt you again, I suggest calling 911. I know it sounds a little harsh for your parents, but it's either that or be beaten.

As for why your family is like this, I honestly don't know. I don't know why some parents are like they are. Maybe they think they are protecting you. Parents can do crazy things when they think they're protecting their children. But at the same time, deep inside themselves, they still love you. They're just extremely worried for you.

[Sythan]

Call 911, this is Child Abuse, plain and simple. You cannot put a boundary on love.

[Jaguar]

Aah, that's very Christian, beating children. Wonder what Jesus would have said about that.

I agree, it's child abuse. If you don't fit the definition of a child, it's assault. Good luck to you, you're in a very difficult place.