just looking for some advice/ideas on what to do

[asdfinfatuation]

Well im gay and I have been going through some troubles lately, im basically out at school, I dont hide my sexuality though I dont expose it at all times so all my good friends know im gay and random people usually dont, any way thats not the point of this thread. I came out to my mom some time around march of last year, at that time I told her I was just questioning my sexuality ( worst idea I ever got) and I “officially” came out to her around october. That time was disastrous, it ended up with me coming short of suicide . she evolved with the idea as time whent by but now as I prapare to tell dad she starts to find a ton of reasons to keep in hidding and it seems every time I set an esimated date to tell my dad she disagrees and says I should do it even later. Bad thing is im starting to feel traped in lies, mom dosent seem to realize how much keeping this part of my life in hurts me and how much its destroying me, and the thing is, she is my mom and even thou I cant help it what she says gets to me and dwindles my courage. Im running out of ideas on what to do I cant bare staying like this any longer.

[Sythan]

First off, calm down and relax a little bit. It will get better, trust me. This life is not easy to settle to, but for those who do, they find it wonderful. Perhaps telling your father is not such a good idea, somethings are better left unsaid, at least for the time being.

[enfantreve]

Like Nick said, telling your dad might not be the best idea. On the other hand, I know what it's like to be out at school but not at home. I know that pain that builds up inside. If you really feel the need to tell your dad, go about it smartly. You need to explain to your mom just how painful it is to keep half of your life from your dad. She needs to see where you're coming from so she can understand why you want to tell him. Also, since your mom has come to accept it, maybe a good idea is to have your mom sitting with you when you come out to your dad. She can be there not only as moral support, but also as someone to protect you from any negative reactions your father might make. Make sense? Hope it did.