Triggering (SH): It's A First

[danceawayyourpain]

To start, I'd like to say that I am dating the most wonderful, supportive girl in the entire universe. However, she is the first person I've ever been in a relationship with. Although I've accepted and embraced my sexuality, I'm still very nervous and scared about the situation. As most teenage same sex relationships are in today's society, our relationship isn't out in the open. In fact, it isn't open to anyone. Although, my girlfriend will happily stand by me if I chose to come "out" with our relationship, I can't bring myself to tell a single person. This big secret is starting to take a toll on my emotional health. My depression has been progressively worsening and I cut for the first time yesterday.
I am very certain that I am headed on a good path; I just need help getting there.

P.S. We are celebrating the two month mark in two days(:

[Mellifluous]

It's better to be disliked for who you are, than to be loved for a lie. Just bear that in mind. Anyone that truly loves you will perfectly accept it. And, life is just a whole lot easier when you're 'out' I know from experience.

And, no cutting. I forbid you. It doesn't lead anywhere good. There are other coping skills that help you cope a lot better, I promise.

Best wishes. <3

[Celestial.]

Hey there.

I'm glad you've embraced your sexuality, because I know that's not an easy thing to do. I agree that you're on the right path in this respect, and while it may not be the easiest path to walk - there's always going to be narrow-minded people, after all - it's right for you, and I wish you all the best with it.

Do you mind me asking why you don't want to come out? People can have many different reasons for wanting to keep this information to themselves, so I'm just curious as to what your motivation is.

It sounds like you really want to tell someone, and I understand how keeping such a big secret can be stressful. Have you talked to your girlfriend about this? She sounds very supportive, and sharing your concerns might help. I'm also curious about why this secret is stressful, exactly, because that can also be due to several things. Is it that you feel like it's wrong (even though you know it isn't), that people might disapprove, or that you're living a lie by people not knowing, or something else?

Finally, I think it's great that you've recognised that you need help, and instead of shying away from that, you've decided to tackle the problem head-on. Kudos to you.

I hope things get better soon.