Non-PG13: Woah, What?

[brokensmilexx]

Alright so I'm going to try and keep this as short as possible..long story short I've been best friends with a girl for likkee 10 years now and we're really close..its hard to explain how close lol. Anywaays, I've known for a few years that's she bisexual and I'm totally okay with that. But a few months ago I found out she thinks I'm hot and had always wanted to fool around with me. (She told the guy I'm seeing this, and her boyfriend) I honestly didn't even believe it. I don't think highly of myself and she's gorgeous so I couldn't understand it. But clues kept popping up I guess kind of suggesting she was.
While she was sleeping at my house for the weekend I woke up and she had her arm around me, then I woke up again and we were facing each other, her leg in between mine and our faces almost touching.. uh pretty sexual for best friends? But to be honest, I didn't mind. Her and the guy I'm seeing live an hour away so I don't see them a lot, so I missed cuddling..plus its just cuddling. (She told the guy I'm seeing and her boyfriend this as well, neither minded)
Buut then I went down there on the weekend, stayed at my best friend's house. We went to the guy I'm seeing's house (Lets call him jay) and me and him were making out and stuff, holding hands and what not and she started getting mad. Jay says that this has happened more then once. I guess it has,,she does get upset when we're together but I don't really notice it. Jay ended up fingering me under the covers while there were a good like 5 people in the room..my best friend saw and was pissed. Obviously its crude. I didn't even want to but it just ended up happening. But Jay snapped and then pretty much wanted nothing to do with me..because he was mad at my best friend. Pft.
THEN, when we went back to her house I woke up and she was wrapped around me again, then at some point we made out..it got pretty intense and we ended up fucking around and she ate me out.
We didn't talk about it the next day, we just acted normal lol. But I know she's going to tell her boyfriend and once he does he'll tell Jay and then I have no idea what he'll say about it.
We made up before I left, he felt really bad about ignoring me and we talked it all out..his main issue is my best friend.
Now I'm very confused because one; I thought I was straight but there I was fucking around with my best friend
two; I don't know whats going to happen once Jay finds out what happened
three; I'm starting to wonder how my best views me. Like things did seem kind of different after that night. Like she looked at me differently.. not in a bad way though. Its hard to explain : s
FOUR; LIFE IS CONFUSING D;

Sorry for my rant
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[Ambush_Reality]

Haha, I feel for your friend. I'm in the same position. It sucks. How do you feel about her? If you don't feel the same you should maybe try talk to her? I know how awkward it is to have conversations about shit like that -_- try get drunk or something first haha. She clearly has feelings for you. But yeah, if you don't feel the same way try back off. the way you're responding will lead her to think you're interested and it isn't fair.

[Jennyjenn1]

You are stright ...

Even if she ate you out and you enjoyed it..doesnt mean anything.

Out of all this your feelings still sound like there just friendship with her enjoying sexual pleasure has nothing to do with feeling romantic about someone.

I think her feelings for you are way past friendship and thats whats causing the problem. She trying to sabotage your relationship with b/f. If she can't have you to herself then no one will.

If this was just sexual curiosity and you were ok with it then thats fine but she has taken this to a very emontional level and thats not fair on you.

If she can't back off and just let you be happy with b/f then I can see this destroying your friendship or send you into sexual confusion for a long time.

Bottom line is how you feel about her. Only you know that but from how it sounded I think its just friendship for you. You need a serrious chat with her and work this out so your relationship with b/f can progress without her interference..

Guys do find girl on girl hot but I could see him being very upset that you had sex with her. This can be seen as cheating to some. I hope he will be understanding of your situation.

[Jaguar]

It sounds like all of you need to turn down the drama a little. You're not the only girl who has a friend she cuddles with once in a while. I think you should talk it out with your bf and it may take more than once. He may be ok with it when he knows she's not going to take you away from him. I have a bi gf and it took a period of adjustment for me to get used to the idea that her friend was just a friend no matter what they did and I was the man in her life.

Incidentally, what you do in the bedroom is between you and that person and nobody else. If you bf wants to know details, you're not at liberty to tell him without her permission. When he gets past the 'you're cheating on me' feeling to the 'its cool you have such a close friend' feeling things will be a lot better.

You're not the only girl who has a bff she cuddles with sometimes but it sounds like things are getting in the way.

Each of the people who like you should turn down the drama a little and stop trying to own you. Each has to learn to share your affection with the other. When they do they'll find there's more love to go around. Then they'll stop trying to provoke each other.

It's ok to have feelings for more than one person at a time. People do that and when it works they have very rich lives if they can avoid the conflicts that arise.

[Viky]

I've had a similar situation. I was over at my friends house and an old friend of mine that i hadn't seen for a while showed up too. We spent the night out friends house and ended up playing truth or dare. At some point during the game my boyfriend asked for a break and the game got interesting. Towards the end of the night we dropped the game right around the time i agreed to take my boyfriend back. I and the other girl then started making out again and I felt really guilty. I still don't know what to do about it and only the three of us knew.

[brokensmilexx]

Thank you everyone for your input, it gave me a lot to think about.
She admitted pretty much that she likes me as more than a friend. I went down to my boyfriend's I wanted to stay there but he was mad about what happened (she told him of course, and didn't even tell me till I was on my way.) <I couldn't reach him by phone the day before and his computer doesn't work anymore. So usually I just text my friend and she'll tell him> So I was going to stay at my friend's. But she left without even telling me so I was stuck there.
So we talked it out and we're fine now. But then my friend's boyfriend ended up coming over and he was on the phone with her. She kept talking about me and Jay and how apparently all we do is make out. When she was there we weren't even fucking talking to each other! (Me and Jay.) Then she was talking to her aunt about me, ranting about stupid shit. Then her boyfriend asks if she wants to talk to me and shes like "No." and saying I'm not a good friend and shit. Like what the HELL. I didn't do shit. So I yelled and told her to shut up. She heard, we were yelling at each other for like not even a minute and then her boyfriend hung up cause he had another call.
Honestly, she was going on and on and on for like 15 minutes. Then would keep bringing it up. I was pissed. She knew I wanted to see HIM, she was the one who left me there anyways. I didn't do anything.
She's fine when me and Jay aren't talking or in a fight, but when we're okay she's pissy. She's jelous and its annoying. Honestly everything just sank in a few days ago after reading what everyone said. Oh boy, what a day that was. I didn't think she would ever like me as more than a friend.

[Jaguar]

Au contraire, she's jealous and wants you for a lover. Two choices: pick one of them for a lover and ditch the other one, or be mature about it and try to work out something with two people who have to eventually understand they don't own you.

[brokensmilexx]

Too bad that didn't work. > . <
She's pissed to the max that it didn't mean anything to me. And is spreading lies about me saying I'm a slut and a whore and all this fucking shit. I wasn't rude or mean or anything. I told her I didn't deserve it and that I care about her as a friend and told her to talk to me when she realized what she was throwing away..Our friendship. Which I thought was fucking important.
She deleted me off facebook, she's not going to g et over it. She doesn't do rejection.

[brokensmilexx]

And I won't forgive her anyways, I don't deserve that.
I said sorry and that I was just confused and wasn't thinking. I told her I honestly didn't know it would mean anything. Like if I knew that I wouldn't have done anything!
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