Confused Again.

[Bagheera Kiplingi]

This is slightly odd...I thought I would never be posting questions here again and yet here I am......well anyways let me help you understand.

I had thought I was straight up until my teens, that's when I really started questioning myself. After awhile I came here and figured out that I am a Pansexual Transgender, I was born female but I want to be male, seeing as that is not possible and I have grown.....accustom to this body I have come to terms with the fact that I will be staying female (a decision which was really hard for me to make) after that I thought I had everything figured out about my sexuality, I thought I wouldn't ever be posting questions here again unless they were because of a relationship not because I am confused again.....

But I have been feeling more and more confused; I am attracted to males, females, and I have no issue dating intersex people, transgenders, or transexual sher but here's the thing I have been slowly noticing that my attraction to males is extremely limited, it's very rare for me to find a guy attractive and when I do generally he ends up looking......rather feminine. An example would be Bill Kaulitz, (the lead singer of the band Tokio Hotel) most mistake him as a girl and honestly to me he is extremely hot. It's almost like when it comes to males a females, males is like 3% and females are the other 97% that I'm attracted to....but the thing is that I have no problem with intersex, transgenders, or transexuals....

So, I know that really the only sexuality that is attracted to transgenders and transexuals is pansexual so does that still make me a pansexual? Or does my preference for women make me a lesbian? Bi-sexual? What am I?

I know that to most people it shouldn't matter your label and it really doesn't matter to me, if you guys don't know what to label me as then I understand and will just continue being a proud panda but....if there is a name or something for this I would like to know.

Also if it helps when I think of a relationship with a guy I generally just think about sex but with a girl I can actually see a long and successful relationship with them. It's not that I can't see myself getting married to a guy its more that the first thing that comes to mind is the sex....Also does that make me a bad person? Could this all just be related to being raped all those years ago? Do I hold some type of grudge against men now?

Thanks in advance, I'm just slightly confused and would like to talk a little bit about it.

[Briana]

The real question is, what do you view yourself to be? To me, it seems as you are Pansexual-- meaning you like everyone no matter gender/sexuality. But, you can get many opinions on this, in the end, only your's matters and how you view your life. xx