In love with the same guy.. for 2 years.

[sensitiveguy123]

It was the beginning of 8th grade year. I was new there and he was my first friend. We were best friends all throughout the year and we had our weird moments where I suspected he was gay, and he (probably, based on the way I sometimes acted) suspected I was gay. I did kinda like him, and he was the 1st guy I liked seriously and the 1st guy I liked that I thought was also gay/I had a chance with.

The following year, I felt like we were the typical friendship broken up by the large world of high school. We never really talked or hung out in 9th grade but I know that he did start going out with a few girls over the course of the year, leading me to believe he was probably straight.

Now it's 10th grade and fate seemed to put us together by giving us the same 7/8 classes, so I see him pretty much all day. This year, I feel like I've matured a little bit, compared to 8th grade, and I really like him a lot more.. I feel like I'm in love with him. The problem is, he seemed to get many friends over the course of 9th grade and we don't really talk anymore and we're not best friends like 8th grade. 2 of his friends that he usually hangs around are annoying and we don't hang out out of school because of that.

The other night, I was texting him to start a random conversation and it ended up with us saying why eachother's life was worse than the other, and something about what he was talking about felt off.. Like I don't know if it's just me being too optimistic but I could swear he was ready to come out and then changed his mind last second.. Nonetheless, we talked a lot and got closer and ever since he's just been on my mind and I can't get him off of my mind.

This is driving me crazy, and I think I finally experienced what it means to be "in love". I'm not a very good person with secrets, having been betrayed A LOT in the past, so I'm not exactly ready to take the first step and come out, especially now that he's so involved with all these girls (when we were texting last night, I brought that up as a point and he said it didn't matter then refused to talk more about it which is an example of how I think he was about to come out but changed his mind at the last second) and it's kind of discouraging me of my hopes of him being gay.. I know it's possible to be bisexual, but for some reason, I never really think of my interests being bisexual..

[Jaguar]

Well it doesn't sound like you're bisexual but he very may well be. You might text him and steer the convo to how he feels about bisexuality and see what he says.