I'm in love with my friend.

[George^^]

Okay, I know that from the title, it looks like this isn't the right place, but it is.

-Let me explain, my crush, let's call her E, and let's call my other friend A.

E is also a girl, but the problem isn't like, sexuality or anything, she's also Pansexual, but I don't know how to make it obvious that I kind of think I love her. But at the same time I have the problem of A already confessing and being shot down... (A is also female, and also pan.- Don't ask me how I end up being friends with two other pansexuals in a very small city...)

I mean, I'm shy but at the same time I kind of feel like I have a chance (Despite the fact that I really know I don't.) Like one time I was at E's, and she had this stupid note that I wrote on her wall, it was talking about how I'd be right back because I left to go to the store when she was coming over. It was stupid, because duh, it was really hard to read. I asked about it, and she didn't really talk about it, and then the next time I visited, it was gone. (She's not one to remove things from her walls.)

The reason why I'm so bothered by it is in Feb. I'll be visiting her (she doesn't live here anymore) and I could quite possibly end up really, really close to her in some situations (possibly sleeping over at her house...) I mean, a whole bunch of things feel like a kick in the gut when she does them (not the nicest person ever, but she's like that because she doesn't want people getting close, like, knowing that she's really not who she seems to be.) I mean, she ignores me sometimes and says things without thinking, me and A along with another friend (... also pansexual... weird.) use to say "Why are we friends with her again?" But I seriously don't know what to do.

I'm sorry that this was confusing, and to clear up with the name, I'm pangender (wondering if I'm FTM... not sure) but yea... sex is female.

[Whisperingwillow]

I don't know exactly how you feel. I haven't quite grasped the concept of pansexual just yet. I know that it is hard to have a crush on another female friend. All I can do for now is sympathize and say, well, maybe try just talking to her about it. Just be open and blunt. It can be the scariest thing in the world, but perhaps she'll feel the same way or perhaps she isn't interested in you like that, but would still like to be your friend. (The second is the response I got and things got weird for a little while but are getting better)

Either way, whatever you decide to do, do what feels best and best of luck to you.

[George^^]

Thanks. I'll try telling her when I see her ^^'