TeenHelp - Falling for someone with a girlfriend

God I feel so horrible about this. Please don't think I'm a bad person. Please :'(

So I have a Tumblr that I use to express myself (a lot of sad things, but also a lot of funny things as well, because I try not to completely surround myself with negative thoughts) and I meet a lot of friends there.

It's normal to get messages from people saying they are always available to talk, and I appreciate it but it usually doesn't go far. But with this one guy I was like "something's different with him." We started talking, and now we video chat every day for at least an hour.

He has a girlfriend. And I have *never* been a boyfriend stealer. In fact, the second I learn someone has a girlfriend, I will no longer think of them at all romantically.

But him and I are pretty close now. He's called me darling and we have pet names for each other, he's said he wants me to come over to where he lives (we are in different countries) and he'll make up a bed for me with pillows and tea and show me all of the "foreign" things I'm missing. He's also said that he wishes there were more people like me around him, and that he wishes he were where I am.

I'm not at ALL intending to somehow steal him from his girlfriend, so please don't say that I am. He just makes my heart feel fuzzy and warm but he's not my whole world, he's just something that makes the day brighter.

But I'm in pain because he has a girlfriend and I'm super happy for them but at the same time I wish I were his girlfriend and I feel like rubbish for feeling that way. Please help :( :'(