Triggering: Still

[Sour]

Dumped again. The distance is always too much.

From 15-18, still single on-and-off. Relationships never last.

The majority of the students in my college are in their late 20's.

On the rare chance of actually meeting someone in my age group, I tend to fall in love with multiple people.

Ugh. It's like I was meant to die alone. smh

Sometimes I feel if I'm not meant to be loved, I don't belong here. Not existing would be a relief.

[Eternal]

You're not going to die alone, you are only 18. You aren't even old enough to legally drink yet, so please don't put so much pressure on yourself to be in a relationship. Many people don't even get their first significant other until they are in their 20's, so you're actually in a good situation because you've had a chance to date some different people to get experience and to learn what kinds of people you don't work well with. I've been in a few relationships and the longest one was only a year and eight months, it's extremely normal for things to not work out in your teenage years because people change and you haven't fully matured yet. Additionally, you can meet boys outside of campus, I'm sure there are plenty your age. And if you really want to date, you could try online dating to find people in your age group that are in your area. I highly recommend spending more time with friends so that you don't feel alone, and try and focus on school. College is really important for setting your life up, and it's definitely more important than a relationship.

[Sour]

Originally Posted by eumoirous

You're not going to die alone, you are only 18. You aren't even old enough to legally drink yet, so please don't put so much pressure on yourself to be in a relationship. Many people don't even get their first significant other until they are in their 20's, so you're actually in a good situation because you've had a chance to date some different people to get experience and to learn what kinds of people you don't work well with. I've been in a few relationships and the longest one was only a year and eight months, it's extremely normal for things to not work out in your teenage years because people change and you haven't fully matured yet. Additionally, you can meet boys outside of campus, I'm sure there are plenty your age. And if you really want to date, you could try online dating to find people in your age group that are in your area. I highly recommend spending more time with friends so that you don't feel alone, and try and focus on school. College is really important for setting your life up, and it's definitely more important than a relationship.

I guess I was a bit too vague about distance. Online relationships ruined my life. I made terrible choices that scarred me and I will never forget it. Besides, I have no friends. I've been homeschooled for the past five years. When I was actually in public school, kids would always assault me. That was the main reason for homeschooling. I have 0 friends, and because of my past relationships, even enemies.