Falling deeper and deeper into this pit...

DestinedForDownfall · **Falling deeper and deeper into this pit... -** December 17th 2009, 03:06 AM

So if anyone has read my other posts, they're all about the same guy. These posts run from good to bad, and this is just another one to add to the negative...

I basically need to vent, get out a few more problems and I hope I can get some good comments. I'm sure some of you will think me insane... but I feel that I'm slipping into insanity myself.

[This might be pretty long, sorry!]

Well P [the one giving me problems, hopelessly in love with him], apologized for his ass-like ways and anger and things went back to normal. This kid knows how to manipulate feelings... well mine at least. But now he's growing distant again. I didn't know why until I asked my other friend [s] what his problem was. Of course P wouldn't tell me this, but he is still in love with his ex... who he dated for only a few months and has been in love with since then. He can't seem to move on, he has his eyes set only on this girl. I am pretty sure that no matter what, I won't be able to tear him away from her... and this destroys me. Not only is the guy I love in love with someone else, but he's pushing me away AGAIN. We don't have conversations anymore, just short little talks. He's trying to change for this girl... while she's been in a relationship with this other guy for about a year. I guess I shouldn't have believed him when he said he was over her.

We used to talk on the phone almost every night... text all the time... now we hardly talk at all... it's tearing me apart to think that I'm losing him because of all these mixed up emotions!

He is driving me CRAZY. I've been told by a couple people that I should seek some kind of help and I am starting to think that too. I mean thinking about this stuff keeps me up at night; and when I do get to sleep I actually wake up to THINK about it.

-SCREAMS-

♥Bliz

Why don't you be the one to talk to him? Stop waiting for him to talk to you. Really you can't break love, at this point the best you can hope for is a better freindship.