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[Music is my Life]

My Relationship Story:

My first crush was with a girl named Abby in grade school. I know it was nothing looking back on it, but when it was happening, I really liked the girl. Then in 6th grade I met this girl named Sandra. Sandra was amazing to say the least. I really liked her and she really liked me. The problem was was that at the end of grade school I went to a different school then her, so it sort of ended. The next year or so I joined the application "Are You Interested" on Facebook. We went out for about 6 months and then she said that God didn't want her in that relationship so she called it off. The summer was spent up at camp having the time of my life. Realizing that I really liked her, I started talking to her again. After three days of talking I asked her if we could try us again. It worked and we dated for another three months and then she called it off again. This put me in a wild depression. I know it sounds weird, but it did. It hurt me for about six months when I started doing these little dates. I started dating people for a little while, but nothing big to call anything special. A few years later after both my grandpa's had died, my dad had been to Iraq and back I met this girl through one of my friends through camp. She seemed really nice and all and I really liked her. So we went to see Avatar with her parents and I remember sitting there one row behind her parents wondering if it would be ok to hold her hand, or what she would think about it. I talked with her after the whole thing and figured out that she felt the same way. Two dates and two movies later we started going out. The one problem was that she lived a ways away from me. It was hard to get to her house a lot of the time. I could drive there, but it just took about thirty minutes to get there. We set up a thing that said that we would go half way every other weekend. For instance, one weekend I would go to her house the next one she would come to mine. I liked this, but I ended up driving all the way to her house and she only drove to the mall and not to my house so I was picking up more in the deal. It was ok for a while for three months until her parents went away. She told me that I didn't have to come to her house, but like a good boyfriend I said I would. So after making plans she wanted to meet in downtown. Usually we had meet at her house and all. This was my first tip off that something was wrong. So I get there and I am walking around for a bit and I find her when she gets there. She insisted that we walk. So we did. We walked down the sidewalk which at one time I tried to hold her hand and she refused to let me. I also thought something was up. We finally sat down and just watched the boats for a long time. Making little talk. I knew something was up. She said that we needed to talk about us. I was like what about us. Thinking in my mind I know what is coming. So then she shorted to explain that she didn't have the spark anymore. I was so distraught. After pronouncing that she pulled out the friends card on me. I knew this would happen. She pulled me back and asked if we could still be friends. I couldn't break her heart even more. I mean I know that people are saying you didn't break her heart, she broke yours, but you don't know her. I loved her. It just killed me. Then I had to drive, AND WASTE &10 on gas ugh. Now I am single. And looking again. Still think about her daily, but soon I will get over it.

If you read this, thank you. I would love a pm if you have anything to say too. Thanks!

[*~Circus Clown~*]

Hey there Bill.

I am so sorry that you seem to be going through such a hard time right now. Relationships are really tough to handle, and it seems like you've been trying your best at it, and just no luck.
Did you feel that their was "no spark" anymore? Did you take the time to tell her how you feel about the break up and everything? Its good to get out what you feel and what you need to say. This way you can gain closure at the end of a relationship.
Its really awesome, and sweet of you that you tried not to hurt her by being friends. Unfortuantely, your going to end up hurting yourself, and with all the relationship pain you've been in, that may not be a good idea.Maybe you should just be honest and tell her you need time. I truly think that with time, you may become friends with her. Infact, after periods of time,I have become friends with all my Exs. But at the begining the wounds were far too fresh for just friends.

I hope things work out for you Bill.
Take care.

[StabMyHeartLover]

I'm sorry for has happened. Thouhg I must say your not going to be able to be friends right away. Did you tell her how you feel about everthing? Thats the best way to let it out. I know how your feeling right now, but please remember its a good thing she let you down now, instead of staying with you with her not liking you. She did the right thing. Also in future reaslships. Don't do all the driving, let it be equal & not what sided.