Feeling like I'm cheating?

[Fallen_Angel93]

In march of last year one of my best guy friends asked me out and I said yes. A year later he asked me to marry him and I said yes. We agreed we were gonna wait til after we were both out of at least high school to get married. We were still kinda planning a few things though. 3 months and 8 days ago he broke up with me. He was the most amazing guy I've ever been with. He meant the world to me. I gave up a lot of things for him. I was actually thinking about giving up choir just to spend more time with him. If he knew I was thinking about it he wouldn't have let me. He was the first guy to treat me the way I should've been treated. 3 days after he left me I found out he got engaged to someone else. I can't get him out of my head. Everything I do reminds me of him. Everytime I try to move on with my life I think about him. I've tried writing letters to him to vent thinking it would help but it didn't. I cry myself to sleep every night. Sometimes if I'm having a bad day and thinking about him I'll just break down and cry in the middle of class. Since the break up I've had guys ask me out but everytime I go to say yes I get this feeling that I'm cheating on my ex. I love him with all my heart. How do I move on with my life without feeling like I'm cheating on him?

[WÀÑÐÊRINGæŠØÚL]

I'm sorry for what you're going through, I've been through it three times and I must tell you a inconvenient truth...
Time is the only thing that is going to get you through this. I'm on my 11th relationship, and I am telling you the absolute honest truth - Time is the only thing that will allow you to get over this boy - anything you do sexually or otherwise with another person until you get over your love for this individual will simply lead to regrets later in life. I wish I could give you a time frame for how long it will take, but in all honesty... It's always going to be different. The mourning of a loved one always has different stages for different individuals, and everyone always wants to do anything in their power to skip as many of those stages as possible - however it is often only when you accept what you are feeling, stop fighting the emotions, and come to terms with what has happened that you truly begin to get over it. Emotions are a funny thing - they have no expiration date, but once you accept them for what they are, the longer time goes on and you go through the motions of life - the feelings will dull, fade, and you WILL Love again.

It's a process, it hurts- it sucks- it's life...
much of life is suffering, but much is also joy.
Try and focus on the good, better yourself and your life will get better
Work out, go for jogs, listen to music, and tell yourself that you can be better - will be better.

...And you will.

~Wandering Soul~