I cheated on him..now I dont know what to do

[OohLaLa]

We've been in a relationship for 3 years. I got very drunk one night and kissed a random person. I can hardly remember it but as soon as I saw my bf I told him about it because Im not the type of person to lie to someone I love. I know what I did was wrong & I feel like a terrible person for it. He says he doesnt completly blame me because I dint know what I was doing but since the day I told him we havnt talked about it. things seem normal but I know he's just keeping his feelings to himself. We arent as close anymore and it seems that the time we spend together, we are fighting over really stupid things.
I love him with all my heart but I feel that hes always going to remember this, and if we are ever fighting, he can always bring it up and make me feel bad.
I am considering ending the relationship and just becoming friends, even though it would be heartbreaking. But I just dont know what to do anymore. I dont want to hurt him again.
Thanks for any help.

[Maloo]

You need to talk to him. No relationship can work through hard things without communication.

[Harmony♥]

Lissa is right; communication is key here.

Not talking about it might be his way of dealing with it. I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that he might have even forgiven you. You did the right thing by telling him, but now do the right thing and talk to him about it. Get to know his true feelings on what happened.

[Jaguar]

I think you're grossly overreacting. Human beings make mistakes and yield to temptation and you did. So...forgive yourself first and resolve not to do it again. I hope his attitude can be tolerant as well.

[PSY]

I think everyone who has posted so far has a point. Either your boyfriend could be holding his feelings in, OR he could be avoiding the incident because he's already forgiven you and moved on. I would wait until the two of you are calm and can talk about this - but make sure this is the last time you talk about it (as in, don't keep dwelling on the past if there's no need to). Ask him to be completely honest with you. Listen to what he says and note how he treats you after the discussion. Make sure you're not perceiving something that isn't there, ex. hostility or avoidance. Make sure your inability to forgive yourself isn't clouding the way you interpret his words and actions toward you. This can actually be really hard to do... so I wish you all the best of luck, and hope things can be resolved quickly! =)