[mindflower]

I don't want to be afraid of you anymore,
but I'm so scared I'm putting one of us in danger,
and I know you don't care about me,
but on the slight chance that you do,
I'm just afraid of what The End will think,
I don't want to get punished for being happy anymore,
or feeling safe,
when you hug me, when you talk to me, make me smile and laugh,
I can't do it....
which is why I need to be scared of you.
I'm so scared.
I miss you way too much for this, but facing my fears and talking to you, just like we used to be, would mean horrible things you'll never understand.

I wish you could understand.
But its not like you care.....