[mindflower]

"Oh, well whenever I'm alone with him I feel uncomfortable"
......Hunny, I hear his name and nearly cut myself. I can't hug him or talk to him, do you know how long it has been since I've talked to him, like really talked to him? 6 FUCKING MONTHS. Do you know WHY???? Because he used me.
....don't fucking sit here and say "my life sucks because I'm uncomfortable around my ex-boyfriend". I NEVER got a chance with him, and probably never will. My self esteem and my paranoia have spiraled in the wrong directions because of him and I still can't stop loving him. Yes, you will feel uncomfortable around him after all of this shit has gone down. I get it.
But seriously.... do you know how lucky you are? Like, at all?
.....it hurts how fantastic you are, too fantastic for me to be visible to anyone.
Maybe that's for the best....