[mindflower]

I have a lot to do for school and it sucks so much I can't believe I let it get this bad and here I am wasting time on TH or crying or wanting to die like I don't deserve.... to waste time...
I deserve to waste away.
Again, I couldn't satisfy my boyfriend and I'm so sick of it. I'm SO sICK of it.
FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING FUCK PAT GET OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND.
MAYBE IF YOU HADN'T EMOTIONALLY SCARRED ME AND USED ME LIKE THAT I WOULD BE ABLE TO YOU KNOW BE HAPPY NOW BUT YOU DON'T CARE I'M A FART IN THE WIND TO YOU AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A SHIT TIME AT PROM YOU FUCKED UP.

GOD WHY AM I EVEN YELLING AT HIM THROUGH THIS WHY AM I UPSET I FUCKED THIS UP FOR MYSELF I SHOULDN'T EVEN BE HERE GODDAMNIT JUST DIE TAYLOR FUCK....
GOD.........
i want to cut..
I want Matthew to be here... i wanna tell him that he's the reason i'm breathing right now......... i want him to come kiss the insides of my legs and blow bubbles and eat junk food with me and never ever leave, we can waste away just like that intertwined together like roots....