It's annoying me how people are telling me how she's 'clinically depressed' and all that bullshit. Of course it's true, but I don't need to be reminded about it. It's actually nice to think she's happy. She cut tonight, and yesterday and probably every other day. I was told I was one of the only people keeping her on this earth and I can't throw it away, I can't throw it away! I'm her lifeline, and it's scaring me! I can't fuck up! She's not sleeping! She's not eating! I have a exam tomorrow and everything is crashing down on me, I have 2 people in my life who are self harming, and my brother held a knife to his wrist, my 10 year old brother! I'm angry, I'm sad, I have no idea what I'm feeling, but something has changed tonight, I need to hold her and hug her
despite all this shit, I love her so much!