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First off, my condolences for your loss. I'm sorry your parents don't understand what you are dealing with. Unfortunately, depression and similar topics are still widely misunderstood by many people. However, you shouldn't allow this to hinder your progress or desire to seek help. If possible, I would try and speak with your parents to explain your feelings and it would be great if you are able to gain their support. But if not, you are still capable of acquiring help on your own and moving past your pain. Best wishes.