Hey there
I'm starting my second year in "lycée" (in France) and obviously I want it to be a good year what with the baccalaureat and all that coming up. As well as the normal classes in French I have "international" classes which are taught in English and which consist of four extra hours a week where we study various classic litterary works in depth. This year we are studying Hamlet, which I read during the holidays, and to be honest I didn't find it as enjoyable as the teahers made it out to be.
I get a lot of stress from thinking about all the work we have to do on Hamlet, especially since this "international section" that I'm part of is like the school's "jewel", and although the teachers are very nice and skilled at their jobs, they do put a lot of pressure on us, which is understandable but doesn't have a positive effect on me. Strangely though, whenever I'm stressed about schoolwork it's not actually because I'm worried that a bad grade will affect my average and all that -- it's actually because I am terrified of the teachers judging me as a person.
This leads me to then leave my homework for the last minute and this happens...
*thinks about school and teachers and that assignment for next week*
*gets stressed*
*to not feel stressed, ignores any thoughts about that work and focuses on something else like art or music*
*keeps pushing thoughts of homework and assignments away because it creates loads of stress and anxiety, until the very last minute*
*as a result hands in poor quality homework*
This always happens, and it isn't really that I procrastinate because I'm lazy (which I also happen to be), but because just thinking about all that makes me so stressed and anxious, sometimes to the point where I'm near tears or even crying.
When it comes to smaller pieces of work which aren't such a big deal and which the teachers don't put so much emphasis on, I can do them just fine. But I get really stressed when I think about a bigger assignment and wanting to please the teachers and all that and just keep pushing it away...
So yeah. It reallu sucks. If you have any suggestions on what I should do, or if you have anything at all to say on this matter, please do
Thanks, and have a good day!