[Coffee.]

The depression is so bad right now. I'm waiting for my partner to get home, but I doubt he'll call me back. Why? We had Skype plans yesterday and he fell asleep. You know, the one three hours behind me in time zones. I stayed up til 1 waiting for him to text me back before giving up.

And in my life, people messing up doesn't mean they'll fix their behavior. It means they'll repeatedly apologize about it and then do the same thing over and over and over because I'm not worth loving or prioritizing.

So no, he's not going to call me tonight.

I'm completely fucking alone. ugh