[Kate*]

We suddenly have a new cable channel, but even the staff at the company can't figure out why. She says to relax and enjoy it, but my stupid anxiety is concerned that we may have accidentally added it and will be charged when we can't afford it. I'll be mad if we lose it again, the content looks awesome.

The fact that I'm only tempted to contact you late at night is why that boundary exists. The fact that I'm involuntarily imagining a meeting with you to the point that I can see it makes no sense.

I guess I'm just never allowed to sleep again.

For God's sake turn off your fucking alarm! It's the weekend, you're retired, and it works better on me than you. And NO, the snooze button is NOT off.

I'd like to believe that if placed in front of you again, I could treat you better than you treated me, but I don't think I'm that big a person. I'd just want to give you a taste of your own medicine that you don't think you deserve so it probably wouldn't teach you anything. I hope you learn something somewhere.