[Kate*]

The fact that this pain may never go away is a real possibility. I need to stop wanting to do that for so many reasons. He didn't have to answer the first time; that will have to be enough.

As of right now, that's not an option and I believe I was lied to. Even if it was, I'm not sure I would ever ask. I'm just that screwed.

This did damage, I think I'll always want to tell you the full extent of it. Or maybe I just want to tell you how wrong you were and prove that believing I was capable of anything was a waste of your time and energy. I'm sorry you had to deal with me, but you did an amazing job anyway. I may be an expert at beating the emotional crap out of myself, but at least I get my information from reliable sources. I got a dismissal, she got a PhD. That said plenty.