[nothereanymore]

I have more nightmares than I do good dreams. It's been determined that my waking anxiety bleeds into my dreams and causes nightmares but I've got a pretty good handle on it and I'm still having nightmares of someone raping me. And this time the perpetrator resembled my brother. I fucking hate this. The abuse stopped almost ten years ago but I'm still being devastated by it and he's long since gotten over it. I could kill him. No remorse.