
That does make sense. But i guess i was forced to live a lonely life in the past a long time ago.. so I wanted bosom buddies to spend time with and hang out with.

That was her.

Now, that won't be her anymore.. I'm suffering..

I want a bestie in some way.
I know that might hurt people... but the fact is that.. I have suffered a lot and I just want it to end. I've suffered so much.. the past few months, I've thoughr of dying every day..

Life is painful.