[Tigereyes]

I have a final in less than two full days. The semester is nearly over but I just can't do this anymore. I've been saying that nearly the entire semester, and everything just keeps getting worse. Maybe I can't handle this. Maybe I'm not good enough. Maybe I'm too stupid for college. It's honestly a miracle I've made it as far as I have. I had college. I hate my life. I hate myself. College makes me hate myself and my life even more. College makes me want to kill myself, but all that matters is my grades. So instead of studying for my final that I'm probably going to fail, I'm sitting here thinking about how much of a failure I am and how much I want to escape all of this, even if only temporarily. I need something. I have nothing good enough, but I have something that helps some. I just want to drop out yet again. So much for being smart. I hate myself so much...