[Cj14]

I have a question. I was in a relationship with a guy I lived down the street from when I was 11/12. I had a lot if problems going on in my life and he was kind of my only saving grace. He did what no one else would do for me and even now I don't hate him or have any il feelings I feel like guilt religiously about what we did because we are both guys. But I never felt like I was raped. I had good sexual experiences and I enjoyed it. I never felt forced. He was like my first boyfriend so to speak. Then when I had to move I really rwaly missed him. I know I was and am very well underage but I never felt violated. Is what I did participation in rape or what?