[golauren]

I have been abusing alcohol for the past couple months and its just gettin for worse and worse. When I drink I usually end up doing something I regret (ex: drunk texting a guy) and when I first started drinking I didn't get bad hangovers. I'd been a little tired and a little sad but now I wake up with bad headaches and I feel nauchous because I drink so much. I usually regret drinking the next morning because of how awful I feel but I start to feel numb if I don't have access to alcohol for a while. I think my self esteem has a lot to do with it, i like myself better when I'm drunk. I'm scared that this is just going to keep escalating and I don't know what to do or who to talk to.