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Should you decide you're interested in counseling in the future, you could always tell your parents you are interested in it without specifying why. Or you could consider seeing a school counselor to talk about your feelings; parents don't always know when their child sees a school counselor.

Something someone once told me is to be careful with my "shoulds." Know that everyone reacts differently to what they have been through and there is no particular way you should feel about this. You will feel your own things in your own time. Right now you don't feel negatively impacted. Maybe it'll change, maybe it won't. What you feel is valid though.

You could write things down and rip it up or you can blog about it if you feel safe enough to do so. You can blog here on TeenHelp and there are privacy features you can use to help your paranoid feelings.