[Silvan]

Know those days when nothing goes right? Yeah that's the one. I don't want to annoy anyone with complaining so I suppose this is the best place to take it all out.
So...
On Sunday there is this meeting I'm fucking scared of, everybody keeps telling me it's gonna be aight but fuck I don't take any pleasure in meeting people, especially strangers that know each other. I'm only stressed af.
On Monday the schoolyear begins. New school, new classmates, new teachers, everything totally unknown.
I've been feeling so sick today. Like vomiting. I've got a headache. And, above everything, I FUCKING CAN'T STAND ALL THESE EMOTIONS I FUCKING MISS YOU I WANT YOU HERE BUT I WON'T TELL YOU THAT, BECAUSE I'M TOO POSSESSIVE AND YOU'LL FEEL BAD AFTERWARDS FUCK!