[Celyn]

Originally Posted by Markus

Are you able to relate well to schizoid personality? You can read up on it and let me know what you think.

We can't diagnose here and schizoid personality is rather specific. There's nothing wrong with looking up things online, but it's good to be careful to avoid self-diagnosing, especially since symptoms can be relevant to many diagnoses.

We all have different feelings regarding socialising. Some like to be the centre of attention, and others prefer to be by themselves or have interaction with a select few. There's nothing necessarily wrong with this. It's great that you did make an effort to stay with friends, even if just for a short while. I'm wondering though what thoughts and feelings you might've had before you felt like crying? If you felt overwhelmed, then it can help to think of what types of situations you feel comfortable in and start there while slowly challenging yourself to get out of your comfort zone. For example, if you feel comfortable with one or two people and doing things that don't require much socialising consider going for a move with a friend or two. Then build up to other challenging situations.

But equally, it's okay to spend some time by yourself, and you don't have to try to be someone you aren't or be very social either.

It seems like you have been struggling for a while now, so you may want to consider seeing a counsellor to help you explore your feelings and learn coping techniques so that social situations aren't so overwhelming to you.