[Celyn]

I don't know what advice to give, but I'm glad that you ranted a bit. And don't worry, we aren't going to say that at least it's not worse...you are already going through so much, dealing with chronic fatigue, depression, substance use, and trying to get through college. That sounds quite exhausting!

It's really good that you are seeing a counsellor and attending AA meetings. You are so strong for supporting your friends too...I'm wondering if perhaps they can try and support you too? You don't have to deal with everything by yourself, even if friends are going through a difficult time, they can try to be there for you a bit too.

I admire your strength in carrying on with college even if you feel you are failing, because I know from my own experiences that it's not easy. Definitely don't want to add more stress though. Hope you figure things out and do what's best for you