[Chimera]

Hi everyone, I'll try to keep this brief!

I was recently diagnosed with anxiety, and was put on a course which gave some useful tips and helped me deal with it. However, I have started to really struggle to deal with feelings of regret with things I have done and it's making me incredibly ashamed of the ways I acted. In the hope of not being too judged, my regrets generally centre around stupid decisions like making out with guys when I'm drunk on nights out sometimes, and my friends seeing and I assume thinking less of me (although they do the same). A big moment that I regret is when I went on a date and ended up letting the guy stay the night (we didn't have sex by my choice, he just slept there which was weird in itself) even though I didn't really want him too.

It's especially distressing because I know in all these situations I didn't really want to do these things, I just kind of went along with it because that's what other people were doing, part of me thought 'why not' and also because I find it really difficult to say no to people especially if I feel like we've built up some sort of connection. Now I just feel so stupid and ashamed at myself for doing this stuff because I'm not that kind of person (no shame intended to others, I know this is a common occurrence for most people my age, it's just that this choices are just so out of character for me)

Sorry this is long, I just feel this overthinking is just getting too much now and impacting on my mood and family relationships, so would love some advice on how to combat these feelings.

Thank you so much for reading!