[Rivière]

I'm really sorry . All those times you tell me it's ok when I explain. The one time I decide not to bother because I genuinely believed you thought I was joking... and you were serious. The thought of hurting you is making my stomach knot. I don't think I can eat today. I already feel like crying and I'm holding back eats. I never thought of it as an insult to you because here it's a normal thing that's joked about. I wasn't to know.

I can feel the tears emerging. I want to see you to fix it but I can't. I know you said it's ok and you accepted my apology, but to me it's not ok.