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Re: Are you alive? What do you live for? WHY do you do what you do? - March 3rd 2019, 01:02 AM
so, 4 weeks on, thought id give a lil update...

I have MUCH better days, and those good days are becoming more and more common which is a VERY good thing.

But my bad days are either worse, or just seem worse by comparison to the good days I now have.

My alcoholism is still very very much alive, and I cant beat it.
My night terrors are still a thing and i dislocated my thumb hitting the wall, or in my mind, the monster/beast/thing.

SO, right now I am having a hella bad day, and still wish id get killed. but overall I think I am better. and I have enough will to try to get better.

Edit:
Thinking bad days are worse than before... made a bucket list...
GoT S8
Avengers: End Game
Paint Tiamat/Tygarian cross over.
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