[Celyn]

Hey there,

Sorry to hear that you feel a mixture of numbness and anxiety. That sounds really difficult to deal with. I'm wondering if anything has happened, either recently or things building up that might've caused how you are feeling?

When we are struggling with anxiety or other mental health issues, it can take it's toll on us and we may find ourselves not feeling much at all and really just living on auto-pilot. Sometimes our brain does this to prevent further exhaustion which it sounds like you may are be struggling with.

Your anxiety seems to revolve around the social side of life. But I'm wondering why are you worried about other people's intentions when they talk to you? Do you still enjoy talking to friends or is it just all people that you are struggling with? You also ask why would someone want to talk to you, and I think that may be more related to how you feel about yourself. Do you feel that you aren't worthy of people's time and attention perhaps? You may not feel like you are a worthy person at the moment, and that maybe partly why you are anxious when others talk to and question their intentions. But you are worthy and do deserve good friends and social experiences.

It sounds like your fantasies are negatively interrupting your life. How about swapping fantasies for more realistic assessments? For example, you mention how you make up scenarios where if someone gives you a weird look, they may be working with your parents to be against you in some way. How about trying to challenge that and realising that it's not the truth and that if the person seems to have an odd expression on their face, it may be nothing to do with you.

It seems like you are really struggling at the moment with anxiety and negative fantasies. Do you have anyone you can talk to about this- maybe a parent, teacher, school counsellor or trusted friend? It sounds like you could do with someone to listen and help you get appropriate mental health care. You don't have to go through this alone