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I feel like Iíll never get better. - August 2nd 2020, 03:40 AM

Does anyone feel like they wonít ever get better?
Iíve been in therapy off and on (mostly on) for the better part of ten years. The talk therapy doesnít work anymore. I know what theyíre going to say. Iíve heard it all. I had a long stint of doing better due to Covid and not having anything going on, so my medication prescribed approved me to stop therapy with the condition that she can recommend I go back if I start to tank again.
Then as soon as a single stressor that most people should be able to tolerate hit, I lost it again and havenít been fully right for a good month and the anxiety and depression have come back. These last three days have been particularly bad because Iíve even felt angry, which isnít a normal thing for me.
At this point Iím on four mental health meds which help me but apparently donít stop the extreme swings and episodes when I encounter a stressor, and talk therapy doesnít work but I know my med prescriber will make me go back. I just feel like itís useless at this point and Iíll never get to a better point. Anyone else? 😕

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