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So my anxiety has gotten so much worse - April 28th 2022, 10:57 AM
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I was an active member here like ten years ago and thought I'd check in to see how everything is doing here. It's kinda sad seeing my old posts and how much better I was doing ten years ago. I basically went through a full blown mental breakdown in December, I caught Covid which gave me a bunch of other medical problems and had to go into hospital overnight. I convinced myself I was dying (I'm terrifed of dying) so was having up to 5 panic attacks a day. I started SH'ing again which I hadn't done since I was around 15. I'm still having health issues (mainly stabbing pains throughout my body) and convinced something is seriously wrong. I'm on a waiting list to see a specialist but the NHS waiting times are abysmal right now.

I actually went to my first group anxiety therapy session yesterday which went okay. It was very much an introductory thing and I already knew most of it.

The non stop catastrophising thoughts I'm having are driving me insane. I don't know how to stop them.

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