Thread: Triggering (SH): I can't let go of it.
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I can't let go of it. - March 2nd 2023, 08:29 PM
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So , to start this off. I've been clean for a month (since January 25). I still get the urge pretty often, but most of the time it's just thoughts. Like "what if I did it?" but I'm able to supress the urges/thoughts. The problem is that the only thing stopping me is the repercussions. I don't want my parents to find out and take everything away. Or even worse, think my GF is making me sh and make us break up (that's been an actual reasoning.)
I think I'm doing a pretty good job supressing my urges, but I just can't let go of my tools. I feel like I need to keep them, just in case.
I don't know how to get rid of them. I'm scared my parents will find them and think I'm still doing it.
any advice? It's okay if not.