[Kate*]

You said yourself, it's all or nothing which means failure is immanent. The only thing more painful than giving up on myself, is working my ass off to lose it anyway. And if I'm not promotable, I'm not staying. It's that simple. I'm giving up on myself, and I want you to talk me out of it.

I know this isn't the mature or adult way to handle this, but I tried and didn't get very far; plus she wants to talk to you anyway. I'm okay with not now; I'm not okay with never. And I'm really not okay with being taken advantage of or lead on. And I can't tell how possible this really is, or if it's just a dangling carrot you're going to use to keep me while you screw me over like the others did.

Now I see why it took him for fucking ever, and that doesn't convince me of much. I want to trust you, but I'm just not sure I can... So, I'll sit on you for awhile and see what happens.