[Em0bxy]

So my ex-boyfriend, let's call him L(cuz idk if I can say names here), L used to tell me I was the only reason he had left for living, and that he loved me so dearly, but I broke up with him because I never had feelings in the first place. I pick a guy and say "I have to like him, it'll make people happy if I'm straight" but I'm like 99% sure I'm a lesbian. L used to say "Oh when I get my hands on you" and shit like that, which I never consented to things like that. So isn't that sexual harassment? He used to do it all the time, and would JO to me and tell me about it. I was scared to break up with him because L can lose his MIND on things like that...one of his ex's killed herself, so yeah. I didn't want L to blow up and go into a suicidal panic. But I did it anyway for myself. And now I realize "damn...picking and choosing guys to 'like' isn't normal" so now I have to figure out how to break up with my current boyfriend and explain "yo...I'm a lesbian" and shit...RAHHHH GOD DAMN IT why is life so frekaing hard. I'M FUCKING 12 AND IN THIS POSITION>..<