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So I was at the hospital(INPATIENT) the other day and while I was there I was seeing this guy in between the two sides of the unit I was on, and he was standing there looking at me, and I asked staff if they saw him too, but they didn't. As time went on more and more of the men started to appear, looking the same, no facial features besides two white dots that occasionally turned red. I started to freak out and told my nurse and she just gave me Benadryl and called my doctor. I started to question whether if everything was real or not and wanted to selfharm really badly. I literally asked Miss Sylvia, the RSS(recovery support specialist), if she was real. I'm so scared of having a psychotic episode during or after my program. I was diagnosed with recurrent MDD with severe psychosis. I disagree with that diagnosis because I get these episodes when I'm not depressed. I don't know what to do, I'm so fucking scared. These episodes have been happening more and more and I have a feeling it's not just MDD anymore. The doctors sent me home even though I was only two days safe and I don't feel 100% safe at home. I hope to get an answer to my hallucinations one day that not just blaming it on my depression, because I Have a gut feeling it's not just depression anymore.