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Hey,

I definitely understand how hard it is to question your sexuality and gender identity. I've definitely been there and know it's a long process.

Unfortunately it's not up to me to decide what your sexuality and gender identity are since it's individual to the person. Don't feel as if you have to define your identity right away. You don't even have to label it at all! I didn't label my sexuality for a few years until I discovered the right label for me when I got to college. There's no rush, and there's no right or wrong answer because sexuality is fluid and the label may change as you discover more about yourself.

It's okay to experiment with things like different labels and pronouns until you discover what's right for you. For example, if you have close friends you can start using different things around them because they should be supportive.

I'd question your relationship with your boyfriend though because he may feel strung along if you continue the relationship when you don't even like him. The truth will come out eventually and it will hurt him more if he finds out like that than if you just break things off now so he can find someone who does share the same feelings.

I hope this helps!

Take care,
Dez