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When you were ten you could eat whatever foods you wanted and see others girls without comparing yourself to her
When you were ten and you stepped on the scale you didn’t panic when you saw you gained weight
You thought it made you cooler
When you were eleven you started to notice all the girls were smaller than you
Though you never did anything to change it
You were still a kid
Though you were scared that it’d lead to something worse
You found out your best friend was starving himself
You wondered why a person would such a thing
December rolls around and now you’re starving yourself
Barely eating anything a day
You lose big amounts of weight but yet you’re still the biggest girl
You had been cutting yourself for a while but this was a new kind of pain
When you were eleven you got diagnosed with an eating disorder
When you were eleven you didn’t do much to change that either
When you were twelve you decided to start eating again
But you gained weight and it scared you
It was a normal human thing but you thought it made you worse and less valuable
So you started to starve yourself again
You pictured a day where you’d be at a event or school and you’d faint because of your eating disorder
You didn’t want that to happen but people would finally notice you were struggling
-Madison-