[Ballsack]

I really wish I have more friends, times like this are really rough but I'm not good at socialising and even then I don't want to bother my friends by venting all the time. I really have a total of three friends and even then I barely talk to two of them, mostly because of different time zones. I think I'm a terrible person, I'm lazy and a doormat, I couldn't stand up for myself to save my life and I'm so miserably insecure. This reads like a 4chan vent post sorry but I really wish I'm better at human interaction. What is it about me that makes it difficult to have meaningful friendships?